|Sunday, September 28th, 2003|
[9/ 28 /2003]|
Okay, gang, here's how it goes.
I think we've pretty much made the decision for ourselves here. Despite the intent to keep going, it seems like the game has naturally run its course.
I know this applies for some people more than others, and that's what I'm sorry for the most. For the most part, it's a really good thing when people find themselves really busy and a game like this comes as an afterthought. With the energy we were all pouring into it earlier on, it was like we were all missing something, and this was the answer. Later, some of us were ready to move on while some of us were into the game deeper than ever. As a result, we had a lot of confusion and some ill feeling.
I wasn't ready to move on in March. For pretty much all of last school year, I was a lonely freshman in an out-of-the-way dorm who was aching for camaraderie but effectively doing myself in by neglecting to make the effort to get out and do things. I felt totally removed in a strange place -- like an alien -- and I wanted to make things better but I didn't know how.
My experience with RPGs is that the characters who mean the most to me, looking back, are the characters I learn something from playing. I commented to darqstar while looking over writing I'd done about 5 years prior that a lot of the devices I'd used for a story character, Jessie, were similar to things I'd done with Piper, and I'd barely even realized it. The stories were part of an arc that started even before then -- probably from about fifth grade on, because when my best friend of the time and I stopped talking I needed to make the Power Rangers story which used to be ours my own -- and continued even into college, not always in the foreground but invariably present, at least in some way. It evolved over time in certain aspects -- the universe and characters the story centered around, the amount of responsibility my character had, the way she related to other characters -- but it was always my personal myth.
Right now, though, it isn't. I don't know if it's dormant, waiting for the next big upheaval in my life to throw me off, or if it's something I'm actually moving past now, but my life is incredibly different. I'm not only more involved and busy with Tekkoshocon now, but somehow I ended up the business manager of IMSO, the Pitt DDR/Bemani/music games club, and I'm involved with anime club as well. There's going to be a Relay for Life on campus at the end of the year, and I'm helping out with preparing for that, too. I'm living at the heart of campus and visiting with with people a whole lot more. I've probably done more stuff with people in the past two weeks than I did all last year. Of course, there's still a lot to think about and a lot more decision making to do -- I found out this past Wednesday that come spring semester I'll be considered a senior in terms of credits, and I have to figure out what I'm doing next year, too -- but the issues for me aren't what they were while the game was in its heyday, or even what they were a month and a half ago.
I'm so glad I played the game, though. It helped me become a better writer and examine how I thought. I had some incredible times playing and I know others did as well. Best of all, I met some awesome people that I really hope to keep in touch with.
I greatly encourage fanfic if you still wish to explore your character in the game universe. In fact, I think it'd be really cool to organize a big group fic project in a few months, where we have an event that affects everyone and split the group up so small groups of two or three players can write their characters' parts together. Would anybody be interested in something like this?
Thank you to every one of you I had the honor of playing with. Special thanks for those of you who were willing to give me a chance when I wasn't ready to give up yet. I've learned so much from all of you and I'm so glad I met you all. Please don't hesitate to get in touch with me if there's ever anything you need or even if you just want to talk. My r/l journal is pantherpg. I might not always be physically around on IM but I still really do care.
Big hugs and best wishes to all of you.
current mood: nostalgic
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|Saturday, August 9th, 2003|
[8/ 9 /2003]|
Just a heads-up.
First off, thanks to our former Bra for giving it her best shot, and thanks to our new Bra for being willing to step in!
Next up, due to the wonder and delight that is band camp, a few characters, including myself, will be very quiet from early next Friday until late the following Tuesday. Do not be alarmed; we are still alive. *g* And of course, just 'cause we're not around doesn't mean that you're not allowed to post. You're welcome to keep playing; just please avoid doing anything major over the weekend, okay? After that little stretch of time, I have a mini-adventure idea in mind involving mainly our teenage characters and Bulma, and hopefully we'll be able to run an adventure with the dragonballs following that. By the way, feel free to IM me about your own ideas, too!
That's it for now!
current mood: content
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|Friday, July 11th, 2003|
[7/ 11 /2003]|
Okay, per the results of the poll, we'll be having the tournament July 23-25. Dice rolling for tournament outcomes will take place in the evening on Sunday, July 20th at approximately 10 PM via AIM chat. Anyone who would like to witness the dice rolling is welcome; just IM Powergal 7 for an invite!
current mood: cheerful
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|Thursday, July 3rd, 2003|
[7/ 3 /2003]|
Under new management. (Please read!)
Hi, everybody. Uhm, this isn't Darq, in case you hadn't guessed. This is PG, and as of this evening, I have assumed GM duties for the game. There'll be some behind the scenes shuffling around over the next few days, but it shouldn't affect anything going on in game, just my mental state. So please bear with me. *g*
I have a few things I need to say. First off, I'm very grateful to Darq for being such an awesome GM and running such a fantastic game for so long. I hope I can keep the game as fun as it was while you were running it. Thanks so much for everything! *hugs*
Next, I'd like to thank Trunks, Tap, Jewel, Piccolo, and Vegeto especially for continuing to post during these past few weeks. It means a lot that you've kept things going so far, I'm really glad you're still here, and I hope you'll stick with us while I get the Budoukai and the next plot set up.
For all of you who have been on the fence about playing or haven't been posting, I understand completely. I know things have been shaky lately and that it's the summer besides, so people are busy. I'd just like to request that you consider staying with us, at least for a month or two. There's a tournament coming up and I'm looking at doing something with the Dragonballs and it would mean a lot to me if I could have a little time to wake things back up and make this game as enjoyable as possible for everyone.
Now, about this tournament. I'd like to have the tournament itself run Wednesday-Friday of whichever week we pick, but if that proves to be a problem, we can change that. During the tournament, each character should post each day s/he competes, win or lose. After all, everyone's been training for this for months, right?
In order to find out which week is best for everyone, let's run a poll:
This poll is now closed.
This poll will close Thursday, July 10. At that time, we'll set a definite date for the tournament and schedule the dice rolling in an AIM chat to determine matches and outcomes in said tournament. All players are welcome at the dice rolling, but if you don't want to know how your character does before s/he does, it would be a good idea to stay away from the chat on said night.
I'll be trying to touch base personally with everyone over IM (I'm Powergal 7) or e-mail (piper_g [at] hotmail) within the next week to talk characters and upcoming events and to help make sure this transition goes as smoothly as possible. It'd also really help if everyone would please reply to this post so I know who has read this.
Thanks, everybody. I'm looking forward to some really great things to come in this game and I hope you're feeling the same way. Please don't hesitate to get my attention on IM or e-mail me if you have any questions or concerns!
current mood: excited
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[7/ 3 /2003]|
There just comes a point...
In the time this game has been running, I've been telling people, "If the game is no longer any fun, then it's time to leave." And also making a big deal of telling people there's no shame in leaving, there's more shame in staying and not being willing to update or do anything for the game.
That time seems to have come with me. For some reason, I cannot find the inspiration I used to have for this game. I've tried, and maybe it's working the new job, maybe it's because the weather is so hot, but I just can't do it. I should be organizing the WMAC, updating, and I just can't seem to bring myself to do it.
I think it's time I took my own advice and bowed out.
Which leaves me with a lot of journals and information left. I could just delete most of the journals, or leave them empty, but that doesn't seem right either. Maybe there are other folks who'd like to give this game a shot again.
So, I'm going to do this... if anyone knows anyone who might want to take over as GM for this game, have them contact me. I'll turn over the journals and the passwords. I'll contact all the offline folks I know to get passwords as well.
I know this is going to disappoint a lot of folks, and I'm really sorry, but I just can't seem to bring myself to get excited about this again. I have to admit, I've enjoyed not worrying about the game. I've enjoyed being able to spend time away from the computer without feeling guilty that I'm not working on the game.
If someone did want to take over as Gokou and run the game, I'd probably be more happy playing a character or two, but at this point, I'm not even sure of that.
I'm sorry I let people down. But, this game just isn't doing it for me. There are still a few loose ends I might tie up by writing short stories about various characters, but other than that, I think I'm leaving the game behind.
Like I said, if you know anyone who might want to take it over, or if you want to take it over and play GM, let me know.
I know I'm leaving everyone in a lurch, but... I'm taking my own advice. It's just not fun for me anymore. So it's time I left. The game ran for over a year, pretty strong, and that's not bad for an LJ game.
If anyone wants to keep in touch with me, my real life journal is darqstar. I don't update every single day, but I've been trying to hit it more regularly than I used to. My AIM name is darqustar.
Best of luck to everyone. And again, I'm sorry I let people down.
current mood: discontent
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|Saturday, June 21st, 2003|
[6/ 21 /2003]|
Keeping everyone up to date.
Hey everyone, I'm back online with a pretty much new computer, that runs great.
The computer itself went together pretty easily, but it took forever, mostly because of a time element. See, when I got this new job, I was told that they didn't need me a lot, but they'd try to find me about 3-4 shifts a week, no doubles. So, I assumed I'd have minimum 3 days off a week, maybe 4, and working about 6 hours a day, plenty of time for everything, right?
Well, I forgot. I apparently have a sign on my forehead written in invisible ink that says, "Wants to work ALL THE TIME! " because last week, I worked 7 days and a few of them were doubles. On top of that, I had special alcohol training (2 nights 6 hours each time) more tests, etc.
Now, last week, when I first got my schedual, I was hardly working. So, my husband got the week off so we could build my system, upgrade his, and take apart a bunch of old systems and rebuild them into new systems to donate to our friend's church. (The church has a program that tries to make sure all the kids in the congregation have a computer at least enough to surf the web, write school papers, etc. So they are always on the market for older systems.) We thought we'd have oodles of time, right?
Not so. Every time I checked my schedual, hours had been added. Not just a bit here and there, entire shifts. I was supposed to have 4 days off at first, that cut down to three, then two, then one, then none. And suddenly I was added onto secondary shifts too.
Next week looks about the same. I have 3 doubles, 3 days of working longer shifts, (meaning I'm the last person out on that shift) and my one day off, I'm on "call in" for two shifts. I have to call for the morning shift and make sure no one has called in sick. If I'm not needed then, I have to call back later and make sure I'm not needed for the evening shift.
So, time? What's that? Todd's going back to work tonight after pretty much having no vacation time with me, and we've still got a couple systems to put together for the church. He did some of them without me, which kinda pissed us both off, cause half the idea of this was to teach me more about computer assembly.
I'm working right now to get work to understand I can't afford to work the hours they seem to want me to work. That as much as I need a job, I'm not 22 years old anymore, and 11 hours of waitressing makes me go from being a fairly reasonable person to a hugely cranky bitch. But, it's going to take time.
I will do my best to post in this game, I really will. But until things get settled down, I'm not going to spend every second of my free time trying to play. As it is, it's taking all I have to get enough sleep at night, never mind finding the time to do much of anything else.
So, until I can work things out, don't expect to see much of the GM. I am so sorry about this. When I started the game up again, I was certain that I'd be able to work things out with work and all such. I had no idea they'd dump all these hours on me. I thought I'd have plenty of time to do my job, update my characters, etc. etc. But, I guess this is the shake down period at work and we have to come to some type of agreement.
Our schedual comes out in two week blocks. If things aren't better by the time the next one comes out (another week) I'll make a decission then if it's worth it to try to restart this game, or if I'd be better off asking if anyone wants to take it over for me. I don't want it to come to that, but it's not fair to expect everyone to keep waiting for me to get my act together. But give me another week or two to see what's going on. In the meantime, I'll do my best to have Gokou update when he can.
Again, I'm so sorry about this. But, even though I don't want to work full time +, I do want to work. We could really use the money around here and I was starting to feel buggy. So, I've got to keep the job.
And, I've also got about 500 emails and requests under my "real" internet name I have to go through, making requests of me as well. I'm doing my best to get it all sorted out.
current mood: busy
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|Thursday, June 12th, 2003|
[6/ 12 /2003]|
I'm getting an upgrade, I'm getting an upgrade!
Good news, my computer will soon ROCK!
Bad news... I'm not going to be around for a bit. We have to kinda do this in bits and peices, and time is at a premium for Raditz and me, so it will probably take us a few days.
current mood: cheerful
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|Thursday, June 5th, 2003|
[6/ 5 /2003]|
Just keeping folks into the loop....
So far, these are the characters I know want to start up again...
People that know I'm going to be starting the game up again, but are still undecided if they can/want to play
4: King Vegeta
I'm pretty sure I can convince Kia and Vegeta to come back, if I can convince them the posting presure is off of them. *g* So far, they aren't convinced that I won't be on their backs to get them to post.
Okay, if anyone knows how to get in touch with anyone else who was in the game before and let them know what's going on, can you please pass the word along? And anyone who's not interested in playing again, please send me the password for your journals so I can put them up for "adoption" again.
Sounding like a broken record time again. I'm going to stress that when I start up again, I refuse to let it become the headache it was to me the last time. I admit, when I was playing tirant and people were posting more, it did make the game more interesting, but it was a lot of trouble and grief for me. And it resulted in me riding the wrong people to make up for others. "C'mon Vegeta, can't you post every day?" "C'mon Raditz, you can post more than twice a week!" Believe it or not, I really hate being a bitch. So, I just won't do it. If people want to post 5 times a week, that's wonderful. If people only want to post once a week, I'm not going to squawk about it. And if you're character is involved with someone who doesn't post as often as you would like them to, I'm going to leave it to the players to try to motivate them to post more.
But, I'm still not going to let people hog characters and never play them either. I'm going to make it simple. If you don't post once a week or so, and you haven't given me a valid reason, you're out of the game. No questions asked. I have enough codes that I'll remake journals if I have to. And I'm not going to take people in the game who *constantly* need time off. Posting once a week is not difficult.
Of course with lax rules, this will make plotting a bit harder for me. So, if I do come up with a major plot and ask for volunteers, I will expect people to post more while the "plot" is taking place, just as I did before. So, if you sign up for a "plot" know that you're obligating yourself to post more often. If you don't want to post more often, don't sign up.
I'm still trying to get into the swing of things at work. Right now, I have one more test to take. 100 questions, and I have to get 85% of them right. And I'm a bad test taker, so I'm really nervous about that. If I pass the test, I'm done with my training. If I don't, I have to train another week and I take the test again. *sigh* So, I know it's a stupid waitress job, but it's important to me and right now, my brain is spending all its free time going over the menu in my head. (And this place has a menu that is several *pages* long... and that doesn't even cover the alcohol list, which is another 8 pages in itself) Also, my mother is recovering from surgery on her hip and I've been trying to go and visit her more often. So, I'm not quite ready to start having Gokou post yet.
That doesn't mean that other folks can't post if they don't feel like it. You don't have to wait for Gokou to post. Trust me, I want Gokou to post, I'm just unable to get into "Gokou" mode right now. I'm hoping that will change when my test is over and I know I passed.
Anyway, I wanted to keep folks informed of what's going on. I know some folks have school and won't be able to post for a bit anyway, while they get through tests and finals and I'm completely cool with that.
current mood: cheerful
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|Monday, June 2nd, 2003|
[6/ 2 /2003]|
OOC... Life's been pretty busy.
Okay, I've started working again, and I'm in "Training" now. Readjusting from being a stay at home wife to a working wife. *g*
Anyway, it's the beginning of June and I am thinking of starting the game up again, once I'm settled into working again and all such. Although, if I do pick it up again, I don't want the headaches I went through before, so basically, I'm not going to get on anyone's butt about posting. You police yourselves. However, if you don't post at least once every week or so, you're just out of the game, no questions asked. (Yes, vacation time is different, and if you notify me I'll know and keep your spot open.)
Is anyone interested in starting it up again? If so, leave a reply to this post letting me know you are.
Now is the time to really think if you even want to play. If you find that it's been a big relief not to have to play, that it gave you extra time to do what you wanted, then now would be a good time to say, "you know, it's not for me."
I am willing to run the group on a much smaller scale if necessary. I'm pretty sure we've lost some of the "main" characters we had before, but that doesn't really bother me that much. I've just decided that if I'm going to do this again, it's going to be fun. Not just for the players, but for me as well. I'd rather only have five people in the game that really loved it, then to have 15 people, 10 of whom I have to ride their butts to get them to play.
Okay, that's it folks.
current mood: happy
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[6/ 2 /2003]|
*raises hand meekly*
Umm.. I know it's just barely past the end of may now but.. are we going to be starting up again?
Ok. Yeah. Going to bed now.
current mood: sleepy
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